On hiatus while blog is under construction and your cat friend is taking some time for self care. I will be -clearing out my inbox - organizing my blog - working on a comprehensive resource page - drafting several posts
What do you mean it’s disordered? I thought that counting the calories in your vitamins was normal? ;)
Woooah it tells you to count the calories in your vitamins? That’s fucked
So last week I saw my nutritionist and we took a big step- she and my therapist had put together a chart showing my weight each week I had seen her and a note of what we discussed/what I was feeling during that appointment.
What was fascinating to me is that every time my weight went down, negative and obsessive thoughts about food, weight, and my body went up. Every time. When I lost weight, I felt worse about my body, more anxious over the amounts I was eating and the kinds of foods I was eating, I felt confused about my hunger and fullness cues and scared that I was gaining weight or out of control.
When I gained weight, I felt better about my body, my intake, my weight- I was considerably less preoccupied with ED thoughts and trusted my body more.
For those of you struggling with weight restoration / maintaining a healthy weight, or who feel as though losing weight will make them feel better or quiet down ED thoughts, please, please know that’s not how it works.
It sounds counterintuitive, but the closer you are to a healthy weight, the better you’ll feel- physically and mentally.
Agreed. It is so sad to see so many bloggers use their power on here in such destructive ways (even if it’s not intentional). These blogs aren’t thinking about the impact they are having on their followers.
Someone in early stages of recovery will see these Fitblrs and think: “Wait, this person is recovered from an eating disorder AND they look that thin and toned?! What are they eating and how are they exercising? Because I am going to do the same!”
Not okay.
I am a firm believer than quasi recovery is par on par with pro-ana in terms of how harmful it can be. Of course pro-ana has all the fucked up tips and blatant promotion but we know it when we see it. Quasi-recovery claims to be the answer, it promises success, and it’s seen as acceptable in the public eye. It hides between a thin veil coated with positivity and sprinkles.
It’s a lie. You’ll find yourself obsessing over food yet again, you’ll still fear family dinners and your life will still revolve around the numbers.
Get professional help, get a treatment team, and find yourself a support group. Fight hard and you will see real results.
I fully agree. People say I am bitter, but go to any professional and they would agree. They don’t want real recovery; they want to remain victims of their eating disorder, getting hundreds of messages congratulating them on eating half a slice of pizza. Congratulating them on recovery even though they have maintained an artificially low weight for a suspiciously long time. Congratulating them on making progress because they practiced self care today by taking a walk.
Like, yes. I understand those things ARE triumphs for some people, but when you are still doing those things for months on end, still failing to seek professional help, still refusing to gain weight, are you *really* making progress? Or are you just eating the minimum necessary to be awake and blog on Tumblr? Or are you just milking your struggles all you can so you can have your flock of fans come to your aid when you cry into your bowl of vegan ice cream?
Here – give a meth addict some cocaine. Hey, at least he’s not on meth anymore. Meth recovery for the win!
Honestly I don’t understand how people can’t see how a large portion of the #edrecovery tag is toxic. I remember when I first decided I wanted to recover I searched the tag, It made me feel like I needed to go to the gym everyday, eat clean and post pictures of all my food which ended up just furthruing my sickness in the long run. So basically it was just a huge setback
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